Learning for me today...

 I got the information in the morning that Kamala who helps me in everything from taking care of my home and center was sick and may not be able to come for a few days. First thought was concern for her and the second thought,'OMG! How am I going to manage home/center without her.' 

Yep! I was being selfish there and I also told myself that I had told her to take rest but she would not listen. 

I took a deep breath and told myself that I could manage.. I have done this before ..and I could do it.

I reached home and started working on getting the chores done.. one by one.

I had a visitor, she is a beautician whom I know for the last 7 years. For me, the connection is more than just a professional relationship. As soon as she saw the condition of the kitchen she said,' Didi there is so much to do.. I will do the dishes, you sweep the floor..we can finish the work together'

I did not take up her offer and at the same time  was amazed with her spontaneous response. She had come for work leaving her nine month old baby who has to undergo an open heart surgery in October. With all her problems ..she was still so open to help me out. She showed me that heart can be at peace even in such hard situations.  So...much learning for me ...

Sharing..thinking :-)

Read this:
'' .... a person is not a finished, unchanging entity but a process flowing from moment to moment. There is no real ''being,'' merely an ongoing flow, a continuous process of becoming. Of course in daily life we must deal with each other of more or less defined, unchanging nature; we must accept external, apparent reality, or else we could not function at all. External reality is a reality, but only a superficial one. At a deeper level the reality is that the entire universe, animate and inanimate, is in a constant state of becoming - of arising and passing away. Each of us in fact a stream of constantly changing subatomic particles, along with which the processes of consciousness, perception, sensation, reaction change even more rapidly than the physical process.''

What I found interesting was the part that the 'External reality is just a superficial one'. Would that mean that what we are doing in our lives...following our dreams/goals/buying houses/cars etc is really not the reality..then what could we be doing instead of that??
What would happen if I am really able to see all this happening around me as external? Would I lose connection with the external world? Would I go into a world of my own which I have created for myself where I feel safe? Would I develop detachment? If I do become detached would that make me something like a stone which has no feelings? Just thinking aloud for myself :-)
Or somewhere just complicating things for myself :-)))