Time

We are always telling ourselves and others that we wish we had more time. I want to do this or that but I just don't have time. Do we really not have time or is it that we do not think certain things are important enough to make time for.

We had gone to Lal Bagh and got really excited seeing the vegetables and flowers. The children wanted to buy seeds. My first reaction was who is going to take care..there is no place in the balcony.. we do not have the time etc etc..
But the children were adamant and we ended up buying seeds for a variety of vegetables, pots.

As soon as we came home we started work on planting the seeds and it was real fun. It has been two weeks up and I love watering the plants and watching them come out of the seeds is a wonderful feeling. The children are also enjoying the process of watching them grow. We are now looking forward to have tomatoes, beans.
And the best part is I have found time out to do this.
It made me realise that if you want to really do something you do find time for it. There is enough time to do everything..everything..

Awareness

Yesterday, I told all of you about varun's dilemma whether to take his beyblade tip to school or not for exchanging it with his friend. I did not give him any answer but had just asked him what the rule was at school and left it.

In the evening while talking varun tells me Venkatesh gave me the tip. I asked him but you had to give him yours. He just smiled and said,' Yes, I took it . Teacher did not know.. sorry.'

My thoughts at that moment:

1. He knew what the rule is but he decided to do what he wanted.

2. This might become a habit with him

3. I allowed him freedom and is he misusing it?

The feelings which came out of these thoughts:

Anxious, Concerned, fear

Are these feelings founded on facts or beliefs?

After checking I realised that the thoughts were all beliefs. I also realised that the fact was that he had openly told me about it (he had been honest about it ..if he had kept quiet I would not have even known about it)

Now what were the options I had: I could ignore/ I could tell him I did not like what he did/ I could make him aware of his choice/I could give a piece of my mind etc

My response: 'You decided to take the tip though you were aware that the teachers would not like it''

His response: 'yes' and the conversation ended there.

I have without being judgemental about it and pushing my thoughts on to him communicated to him that it was his decision and he is responsible for his actions. I am not sure whether this is ok or not but this process helped me be more aware of myself :-)